Foreword by Dr. Allen Frances
Part one. Building a life experienced as worth living
Descent into hell
I will prove them wrong
A traumatic invalidating environment
A stranger in a strange land
I had to leave Tulsa
Part two. On my way to Chicago
Intellectual and spiritual transformations
The path to thinking like a scientist
My enlightenment moment in the Cenacle Chapel
I have proved my point!
Love that came and went, came and went
A suicide clinic in Buffalo
The development of behaviorism and behavior therapy
Fitting in at last: small fish in a big pond
What have I done?
Finding a nurturing community
Like a fish on a hook
Finding a therapist, and an ironic twist
Part three. A thumbnail sketch of DBT
Finding my feet in Seattle and learning to live an anti-depressant life
My first research grant for behavior therapy and suicide
Science and spirituality
My fight for tenure
The birth of dialectical behavior therapy
Dialectics: the tension, or synthesis, between opposites
Learning acceptance skills
Not just acceptance-radical acceptance
Good advice from Willigis: keep going
Becoming a zen master
Trying to put zen into clinical practice
Mindfulness: we all have wise mind
DBT in clinical trial
Part four. The circle closes
A family at last
Going public with my story: the real origins of DBT.