Cover
Title Page
Copyright
Dedication
Epigraph
Contents
Beautiful Boy with Garlands Around His Waist
What is Left of Us is Made Broken and Shy
In Which i Sit with My Father on a Threshold
We Are no Longer at the Threshold
In Which i Sit with My Mother
Portrait of a Boy in Gorgeous Display
We Recognize this Space and All the Promises it Never Held
Nervous Wound
Just in Case i Don't Come Home Tonight
Logan Theatre
Hand
To the Manual Parts of my Upper Limbs Distal to My Wrists
I Prefer the Safety of these Hands
If i Die, what Would My Family Write as My Biography?
Portrait of a Boy with Hands Helpless
Boy Meets Boy & This isn't about Love
What i Know about Beauty
Duplex
Orbit
The Face of Memory Glitters with Hope
Notes on Desire
Host
Diary Entry
Leaving Sad Things Behind
What Escape These Hands Can Tell
That Night
Self-Portrait as White Spaces
In the History of Belonging
All My Friends Are Terrible Photographers
At a Queer Safe Space in Lagos
The Emptiness Born Out of Escape
Biafra War Song
Ars Exsilii
Peace Lilies
At the Airport Terminal
Joy for Yet Another Night
Exile Leaves You at the Foot of Desire
A Ritual about Home We've Come to Know
Survival
I Practice to Get Hold of Myself
I Have Been Thinking about Worship
Prodigal Son
A Ruined Candle Wax Still Breathes Itself into Shape
Acknowledgments
About the Author